Confessions of A Naughty Girl

Once more, with feeling

Sorry for the absence...it's a busy time of year, and everyone needs a little down time. I had the longest day ever yesterday, arriving in Ft. Lauderdale at 1:00 am, after a full day of work and a three hour flight delay in Chicago, so today has been spent sleeping it off and opening a window everywhere I go to adjust to the 80 degree weather.

Since this vacation is long-awaited and well-deserved, I preemptively apologize for a lack in quantity or quality of posts. There's not much going on, and for once, that is very refreshing and exciting. But since my girlfriends never believe me when I say nothing is going on, I'll let you know that you'd would be completely undelighted to know that I've talked to Dr. Rob twice in the past two weeks, since he showed up shitfaced on my birthday. But thanks to him, I amused myself at the airport on the phone all evening yesterday, and he did ask me out again sometime in the next couple of weeks. Yet again we'll try going out, just another phase in the neverending cycle. Pretty soon one of us will freak out and decide that it's better to be friends. And then, six months from now (unless someone meets someone else, which sometimes throws the timeframe off), I'll get an email or phone call, or vice versa, and we will tell the other person that we miss them, and the other person will suggest going out, and it will start all over again.

I think everyone has at least one person they cycle with, if not more. Certainly I can think of at least one good girlfriend (S) who cycles with the same guy. Basically, you keep trying to make it work, but it never really does. So you take a little hiatus and then bump into the person again somewhere, and as if it never happened the first time, start trying again. My friend is on a two month cycle, and she's on try #3 as we speak. If Dr. and I are on the cusp of another cycle, this will be try #4 in three and a half years.

When you're in the cycle, it's hard to believe that it won't work out. It's like you're blind to reality and history. But then, you always hear stories about people who did manage to figure things out and now they're together forever and getting tattoos of the other person's name and shit like that. So you buck up and keep on coming back to the same person. Who are you supposed to believe? Do cycles ever really end? Has anyone ever worked anything out with someone who was a part of a cycle, or did it just end as soon as someone found someone else?

posted by KA @ 3:28 PM