It's On My Mind, Might As Well Post
Do you ever have an epiphany where you realize that you might be missing out on something that is right in front of you? I talked to one of my best friends last night for two hours. And he is one of the most witty, fascinating guys I've ever known. And I always love talking to him.We were talking about random stuff when the conversation took a slightly different turn, and we broached (love that word) the topic of why we've never dated. And it hit me like a ton of bricks - why haven't I dated this guy? I couldn't come up with a single reason. My immediate reaction was to try and dismiss it, but I have been thinking about it all day. We have known one another for almost 5 years, and been good friends for about 3 years, clearly standing the test of time (and complicated situations). I have always had this weird suspicion that I was going to end up with a guy that was right in front of me all along. It certainly wouldn't lack in irony...of course I would end up with some guy that I overlooked while I was f*cking around with assorted jackasses.
This friend, he's smokin' hot. I have always thought this. He's nice. Very intelligent. Great job. He tells a mean joke, which I love - sense of humor is key. Watching him play guitar is beautiful because he's amazing and can cover Fuel like no one else. He's a fantastic hook up. We talk about pretty much everything. I am always so entertained whenever I'm with him - who else is capable of dragging me, at 3 am, to a goth bar with cages and whips and chains, simply because it's funny? (That was actually sort of scary, but still fun.) He has seen/heard me cry more times than I care to count and always knows how to make me feel better, which is usually to either make me laugh, or to offer to kick the shit out of whoever guy. (And he did almost go to Matt's house, until I reminded him that it's not good to mess with a convicted felon.) He has bore witness to my abrasive temper, and yet still actively elects to be my friend. I mean, isn't that pretty much the whole package? Am I missing anything here?
I am still thinking a lot about this, and it's not all sorted out just yet. Maybe I will find a reason and then dismiss this pathetic monologue I have going in my head, but it does kind of bother me that I've never considered him an option or entertained any of these ideas until now. Shit, I feel so smart at (almost) 24. Maybe I'll discover a cure for cancer this year while I'm at it.
posted by KA @ 1:47 AM
3 Comments:
well, hello. First time posting. Iam a part of the minutemen blog forum. And I felt intrigued to go look at other posts. I don't know who you are, but I would like to give you a piece of advice. GO FOR IT! Just try it, give him a chance. Trust me you won't regret it. On personal expience it worked out for me. Now I am living with my girlfreind and who knows what is next for us.
If you do give it a try it will be weird at first. Everything will be akward. Escpecailly after the first time you have sex. I would say get drunk before you do it the first time. can always blame it on the booze if you get to freaked out.
Love your blog.
John S. from the minutemen blog
John S.,
First of all, thank you. I welcome, and appreciate, your comments. I do hope you continue to post wherever you feel appropriate.
One of the reasons I started this blog is to open up some sort of dialogue. I would love to see the various readers of this blog share their varying perspectives about whatever issue is at hand. I realize that a lot of my posts are personal, but there are messages in every one of them if you read carefully enough.
As for the advice, I would love to take it, and I may do that. (And I completely agree with your idea about the booze - we are definitely on the same wavelength.) But for as flighty as I may seem to some people who do know me, I don't want to go into this without thinking about it further, and definitely not without planning out what I will wear, should the big day arrive. (I am a girl, after all.)
Again, thanks for posting. Hope to hear from you again soon.
Thanks.
Also, while we're at it, please spread the word about this blog to anyone you think might appreciate its content. All of the political blogs I have linked to are awesome, but I can't compete with them, nor do I care to. This blog carves a niche because it dares to discuss the "other" issues imperative to life - like how long to wait before sleeping with someone, or why girls go to the bathroom every 5 minutes (in my case, it is to reapply lip gloss, which is rude to do in public). Thanks.
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